By Skylar Martinez
I’ve learned many lessons in my life, one was to never take anything for granted, don’t assume something will last forever because it won’t. Instead of waiting for things to change or happen take control of it.
On April 24, 2016 I lost my older cousin Dakota to an unexpected overdose, that was my first account of having a lifeless loved one in my arms. I waited and watched in the hospital room and saw him turn from white to purple in the matter of minutes but it felt like hours. My mind wasn’t on my pain, but I was wondering of the future. What will his daughter think? All the things she’ll never experience, a father daughter bond no one can ever show her. My thoughts changed to what I should’ve done instead of what I did.
On December 3rd, 2016 I lost one of the most important people in my life, my grandpa. The only man who stayed in my life was taken away from me and there wasn’t a thing I could do about it. I was devastated and once again found myself thinking of the things I should’ve done. Now I only hate myself for what I knew I needed to do but didn’t. Someone I thought would walk me down the aisle one day at my wedding and many other things is only in my mind now. If I would’ve known what was soon to happened I would appreciate everything the two of them did at all times.
I’ve learned to love harder and show my feelings so I know the ones around me know I care. Life is so blinding you never know the next struggle you’ll face. Don’t care when it’s too late, the last argument can be the last words mounted into your head. Take every day and make the best out of it and never take anything for granted. As soon as you think somethings not going anywhere it’s taken.