I’m not going to lie, I miss you. I miss the affection we used to give one another. Even when we fought, I never wanted to let go of you. I don’t want you back, but I just wish we would have ended things differently. You let people believe I was the bad guy in the relationship when honestly, we both were. There have been times when you made me feel like I was never good enough for you. I’ve read messages between you and other girls, lying about us still being together. I remember bringing that up to you and all you could do was change the subject.
I can’t put all the blame on you because I know I messed up just as much as you did. When we took that “break,” we didn’t talk for almost two months. I started talking to someone new. That person made me feel important. He even listened to me continuously talk about you. He would often give me advice on what to do, but I never listened. I just couldn’t get you out of my head.
One day, he walked me home and kissed me. I felt terrible, but I still wanted to know if I felt the same way knowing I wanted to still be with you. I know it sounds selfish, but weren’t we both?
I didn’t expect you to forgive me, but I was hoping that you would understand. I didn’t want to lead him on, so I told him that I was still in love with you. I stopped everything that was going on between him and I, for us. I believed that we could fix the problems we had, but I guess you didn’t feel the same way. I guess you wanted that girl you were talking to at your school more than me. It’s okay, I just wish you didn’t lie to me about it. That’s why we’re where we are today; I just felt as if we were on two totally different levels. I felt as if I should never have to fight for someone who doesn’t care to fight back. Ever since we went our separate ways, I knew it was for the best. I’m just glad you’re still happy with someone who could give you the things I couldn’t. It’s funny, I guess you can say, “If you love something, set it free.”